Downhill

I am in such a foul mood. Really, really ugly.

I spent 4+ hours dreaming about extensive and painful dental work. How do I know? Because I looked at the clock at 2 a.m., waking from the dream, and woke again from its continuation at 6:30 a.m.

Mama and I had fits this morning, mainly about the mess downstairs, because Sis tripped on something again. But then we just got grumpy with each other, knowing that the problems the kids have with putting things away are problems that we have. And Mama worked so hard on things this weekend, rearranging upstairs furniture and getting a lot done. There just always seems to be a lot. (And yes, of course, thinning out things is the answer which is what we're doing. It takes time. A lot like dieting. And sometimes you want it to go a lot faster than it does. A pound of flesh or of stuff a week just doesn't seem to make a difference. Though, we know the house--and body--weren't built in a week or a month or a year).

And then, in a cleaning spurt, I found mold under the sink, presumably from a leak in my relatively new sink. And the toilet still isn't working properly but the plumber hasn't called back yet.

And then I just had a ridiculous phone call with a woman from who first called me last night after 10 pm, which to my mind is way too late and rude if it's not some kind of immediate family emergency. I didn't pick up, being in the tub, but called her back this morning. And all she wanted to do was complain that I didn't include someone's last name in an email! I had included the first names and phone numbers and assistance needed but she wanted more and needed to tell me that she didn't like the way I did it. And that's all she needed. AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

And throughout all this, the kids have been beautiful, self-entertaining, getting along, having fun. And what do I do during all this wonderful time? I can't even muster up gratitude for that. So, I'm in a terrible mood. For stupid little reasons. But that doesn't lessen the fact that I'm in a bad mood. So, I'm going to just be in this bad mood until it goes away.