I can walk.
I can even walk around Target for a little bit.
I can ride in the car for awhile.
I can sit on the couch.
I can take a shower.
I can put on almost all my own clothes (socks are hard and I'm wearing slip-on shoes.)
I can unload the top rack of the dishwasher.
I can wash a few dishes.
I can help pack school lunches.
I can blog.
I can crochet.
I include my older list, with some edits, to keep me going:
I have not had severely debilitating back pain in almost 4 whole years.
Last Memorial Day 2014 when I had back pain, I still functioned and did things.
My surgery was four weeks ago and I am much better.
I can walk longer and faster than before (well, beforehand.)
I can drive longer than I have in years (I drove the furthest, 25 miles, the day before my emergency!)
I know how to cope with pain.
I know how to cope with fear.
I know there will be pain and fear and I am ready.
I can be calm in a crisis.
I can accept that I am not in control.
I have compassion for myself.
I have the tools I need--meds, heat pack, brace, stretches, rest.
I have great support and understanding in Mama and the kids, my parents and my sister.
I have the time and resources to take it easy.
I've survived and thrived:
- On trips to
- ENGLAND! and Cardiff!
- Girl Scout overnight, on the floor, at Old Sturbridge Village!! (this one gets forgotten because it was three days before my emergency)
- Disney World (even though EPCOT was hard, I got through it)
- Washington DC
- Houston and environs
- our nano-honeymoon in NYC (and all those stairs at the Merchant House)
- Experiences such as
- sitting at a hospital bedside and visiting for hours.
- lighting a fire and cooking over it.
- going swimming
- taking GS outdoor class Food, Fire, & Fun.
- taking archery and becoming certified as an instructor.
- passing First Aid and CPR--I can give mouth-to-mouth and use an AED.
- riding on parade floats and giving a lecture on costuming in full corseted costume.
- sitting at the piano and play "Finlandia."
- learning ASL
- going on retreat by myself for two nights all alone--including sitting at length, creating art, taking yoga
- winning 4 stars on Just Dance, dancing to "Bang, Bang."
- playing basketball with the kids
- playing water basketball with the kids at the Y
- going to long movies
- going to Lion King, Phantom of the Opera, Les Mis, Wicked, Vagina Monologues
- wandering around museums
- eating in restaurants at night
- walking in the snow
- making snow angels
- going canoeing
- I can do (before my surgery . . . and I will again!)
- unloading the dishwasher
- walking on the treadmill
- sitting on the floor with the cats
- taking a real bath
I did all that. I can do what comes next.