First Grieving

My friend forgot we were having lunch today.  She also forgot she had a doctor's appointment.  And she had forgotten what time the appointment was.  She didn't know if it overlapped with lunch.

But most difficultly, she had forgotten how to check what time the appointment was and didn't know what to do.  

Confused and disappointed silence.

And I didn't know how to help.  

So we canceled.

And I know she will forget me someday, perhaps someday this year.  Because when she picked up the phone, there was a longer that usual silence after I said my name.

Today just made the eventual loss more real.  And I'm sad.

But I'll make another lunch date for next week and call to check repeatedly like I did this time and hope for the best.  And just keep trying . . . because I won't forget her even if she forgets me.